Jarring title I know!!
I just wanted to get your attention before you tossed me aside like yesterdays water bottle. It took me travelling to Paris and seeing my friends there and hanging out in the places I really like. I have been so fortunate over the years to go back and forth to Paris. Almost like the number of times we go back and forth to Los Angeles and Vegas.
Sounds somewhat pompous but it is my reality. I have been a Frenchophile for let me say longer than some of you have even existed.
All of this is for the segue way into where I am headed.
It took me getting Covid in Paris... OMG, How horrible to get that in Paris.
But then for me if I have to get it, then C'est la Vie. Yes, Yes, Yes I was vaccinated twice and boosted once. Boosted the second time now cause there are no guarantees for anything. I make my own way. Its my life and I survived Aids, LGBTQ marches, BLM marches and now Covid. I think I am good to say here I will be here as long as this life takes me.
I am gifted with some really good friends. You know the ones that really mean they are here for me and me for them. There are some people I have known for a longer time than most, but I learned early on time never really matters.
It is the quality of the time that is important.
So finally after putting my life on pause like so many thru the Pandemic, I am back. Writing more blog pieces. Writing more period. Its is therapy for me. Starting back the plans of moving my goals and self forward. Never really felt the confidence until I saw my friends in Paris and my friends here. No more masks in a lot of places. Still keeping a cautious eye cause that's me in general.
The energy has returned!!
What I had missed most was the personal connections with the people that meant the world to me. Plus a heavy re-evaluation with myself. Then forgiving myself for being so hard on me from that. The relentless smile returning to my face cause at the end of the day I am a happy person. It took a lot of work to get to happy, but I never forget the lessons along the way to get here.
So I decided to erase those two years as long long trip to the store, But I finally have returned.
Investing more in me!
Investing more in my friends!
Investing in life period!
All the shine of a thousand spotlights
All the stars we steal from the night sky
Will never be enough
Never be enough
Never enough
For me!
Never can get enough of that song.... It speaks to me so loudly
FInally have ditched the covid moments. Not remembering of why I am standing in my room. Of course there will always be the moment of finding my car keys in the refrigerator.
Sense of smell came back so strongly that I have begin to smell things that should never be smelled. Several trips to candle stores have fixed that issue, but then again who does not love candles.
I let the people in my life continue to be themselves. I have never been good at judgement. It is never been a strong virtue on anyone.
I forgive and forget anything and all things with everyone close to me. It is always interesting to me as to what they think bothers me. It is never what they imagine.
Of course as I recently told one of my closest that people are always going to be assholes and bitches. For those people that is all they have going for them. That is on them.
Not for me at all !!
If you have been mean to yourself because this was not completed or that was not done. Just get to it when you can cause we have over two years of hopes and dreams to get done.
No zero days anymore!
I just do one thing each day on the things I don't want to do. What I discovered is the amount of change by one small movement.
When I took care of my Mom and we were going thru physical therapy to get her to walk again after a hip break, there was a lesson learned from her physical therapist. One small movement each day made a huge difference. She was walking again not too long after that.
So I have been saving up my love for everyone so much that I could no longer store it anymore
This might sound odd but I really want to say Happy New Year finally for this year. Better late than never. Lets make it count as much as possible.
Thanks for reading Live Live Live.
See you soon.
Let's go out with some travelling music.... Hit it Harry
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