On My Own

I need you to listen to me, please believe me

I'm completely lonely, please don't judge me

When your tears are falling, I'll catch them as they fall

I need you to listen to me, please don't leave me

I'm not perfect yet but I'll keep trying

When your tears are falling, I'll catch them as they fall

There is so much of me involved with those words. At first glance you might think this is going to be a dark post or intense post. There will be some points that are intended to make you think maybe a little more or feel a little more than before.

There is an amazing time of year that we all for the most part come together in the same or like fashion.

"Its the Holidays" The holiday season starting with Thanksgiving and eventual segue into Hannuka/Christmas. I am a jew who loves Christmas.....

That time where you experience more smiles than normal, more hugs than normal. In some cases so unnormal that it feels awkward or different.

For myself it was like I was waiting for the clock to strike 12:01 am, right after Halloween and I would begin to think about decorations, Xmas, celebrations and the fact you can never have enough christmas lights anywhere. If I could plug them into a power source in my car, I would probably have that experience and all that goes with that. This year more than any other moment in my life. I need a little Christmas. Right this very moment. Need a little Christmas now.

We have lived and are still surviving through a change in our planet.

In our world. It has had life changing moments for all of us.

Covid has caused some of the strongest, most well adjusted humans I know to lose their shit.

For myself, it has taught me more than anything that I am not ever alone. I have a full range of talented humans from all walks of life a phone call, a car visit and a night spent away. There continue to be long conversations and long evenings sometimes drinking myself into some weird justification for all of it to only wake up the next day and wonder what did I say really say to someone!!

The universe has made us take an intermission in our lives to take stock.

Regroup!

Refine and Reestablish our lives!

I hear every day "I can't wait for things to get back to normal"... For me I am still trying to find normal much less even live what is normal.

I am not normal! There is no normal.!

"It just is what it is". Perod!!

What I wanted to say more than anything if you give me a moment is simply this. "Thank You".

I want to thank all of my friends, close and wannabes for sharing their up close and personal lives with me.

Thank you for trusting me with all your really personal secrets with me.

Thank you for showing me who you really and honestly are as people.

To level with you, my readers it has been the biggest life changer for me in so many things I believe. So many things I know to be true.

There is hope now for the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. A Cure or rather a vaccine to stop the spread of this environment that landed on this planet.

I witness every day of more appreciation of who we are as humans. For myself I am so thankful for the insanely wonderful people in my life. It has made me revisit some of the people that have come and gone in my life as well some of the people that just plainly need to go and go away.

I am a tolerant and forgiving man but I can no longer waste the time to be around the thoughtless.

There are so many things I want to have happen in my life. My personal goals if anything got even larger. My beliefs in all that there is that surrounds us could not be stronger.

There are some people that I still love that I am no longer in love with. And that's as it should be. Some of my relationships have an expiration date.

Some of my relationships will never leave me.

I think that is a healthy way to live. There are moments of sadness but the joy by far out weights the cons and my list of pros is enormous.

Thank you for some intensely moving moments that have taken my breath away. I learned how to cry again. I learned how to love again.

Thank you for everything that you have given me and everything that you allowed me to give you. I have received so many, many affirmations that my every single thought has prepared me for what I have asked for on so many occasions. You see I have received bits and pieces along the way that showed me the attainment is almost here.

There have been days that lasted way too long that left me feeling "meh". Of feeling that was I not on the way to where I wanted to be. That needed to change. I needed to stop fighting the unique and beautiful person I am.

I refound love in the middle of all this and it started with me.

There are so many messages that I am thankful for and thankful for you all reading about them and living with me thru them. My world has had a miraculous recovery. My world is full of so much abundance.

My abundance not just in money, but of possibilities, of friends of dreams of realities and of hope. I don't want things as they were but as they going to be.

Better than I ever imagined.

This whole CoVId presented a moment that we needed to take a breath and believe again. Believe there are no coincidences. Believe that we live exactly how we asked to live. The change begins with each and everyone of us. The change begins with you.

I am humbled and thankful beyond anything that I have you. That I have my readers, my friends and my loves.

I learned a long time ago to look at a much larger landscape.

To look at what is beyond that landscape.

To see what is not always seen. My simple belief in the magic of it all. It is magic. It is real

To see in your heart what was is going to be inside your head. To imagine every aspect of what you were wearing when you got there. To see the colors and remember the smells of success. To see yourself living in what is to become.

The possible of possible.

So, "Thank You".

It is an honor to know you. An honor to be here for you. An honor to be alive

Thank you for reading Live Live LIve

See you on the other side.