"Intermission"

"I will take a chance to be who I’m meant to be.

I won’t let fear keep me from trying

It’s time for me to make a change to start living the life I want.

I’m going to reach for the sky way up high, I’m never giving up

It’s up to me to see who I can be and Make my dreams reality

I’m never giving up!!

I have never lived the life others expected of me so I could be proud of who I’m becoming.

Me!!

Some words to think about and sort thru and to set the tone for "Intermission"

It's not what you might think when you first see the words. It for me is that time I need to gather my thoughts and get a sense of where I am at this moment. To go over my past experiences with myself and with the people I have come into contact with over the years. To see what I am doing personally as a mentor for others and to be a mentor to myself.

A time to breathe in and out, to breathe life in and out and a time to just be breathless.

When I began this process of writing a blog almost 4 years ago. Actually that anniversary will be next month and that month will also be a milestone as I will have written a 100 blog posts. I am as amazed as you are to have achieved this point. But I will go into that next month.

My goals were simple when I started to write Live Live Live.

I would write about things that inspire me, people that inspire me of which evolved into my life experience.

The blog really became a journal of sorts but the truth is it has been a voice for the universe. What I mean here is every time I have written each piece, I have asked for the universe to tell me what needs to be heard.

The beauty of that asking that is the blog fine tuned itself to the readers that needed it the most at the time. It has expanded because my audience has expanded.

My asking was simple. Show me what I need to know and what path I need to take and I will follow without question because I have the knowing. The knowing that there is a larger spirit, universe, or god. Whatever you feel you want to call it. Anything but Angry Karen. I digress.

All of the things that have happened to me in life. All of the people I have and continue to meet meaning from the A-listers to the iconic personalities to the everyday less spotlighted people I meet every day.

All of these moments were given to me and presented to me for a reason. This includes the moments growing up dealing with a mentally abusive parent. That trauma stuck with me all the way till I was almost half way thru my life in the experience that I would not have my adult voice until two months after that parent passed.

Even dealing with that mental disability which included a constant source of bullying form anyone that met as they made fun of my voice either to my face or the easier way behind my back. Even with all that I was still having incredible moments happen as I would still continue forward.

I always have known I could do better.

There was the life changing time of when I grew into my name Rand. I was named Randolph from my Mom. She was in love with an Actor, Randolph Scott. Hence my name.

My dad hated the name and wanted to call me Randy which I never liked ever.

When I started my last years of college and got more into the creative side of me. I was dubbed Rand by an incredible personality that impressed me emotionally and gave me so much hope. I called my Mom and she confessed she always wanted me to be called Rand from the beginning.

So Rand was born.

Of course with that story, my life started becoming more glamorous as I was doing hair and make up with a disco group as I was hired for their tour. Domestically and Internationally. Traveling all over the US and then I started the Europe leg of the tour. London, Madrid, Milan, Rome and then landing in what would become my second home. "Paris". Just like the movie "Sabrina", I would find myself in Paris. I would come alive creatively as I was surrounded by the Fashion world, the entertainment world and the parties and night life that went along with that. I fully became "Rand" in Paris.

I have not looked back since.

Those moments would give access to the famous. The incredible things I would and have learned since is that the really talented and amazing talents all have the same in common with me.

We are driven!!

We are passionate about our choices!!

We do not give up!!

Basically all the things that have happened to me. All the pain. All the things thrown at me are the things people do not want to talk about. All of these lessons were shown to me because the universe wanted me and still wants me to share so I can show you a better way. So I can inspire and motivate everyone of my blessed readers. So I can bring you this message. "Believe"

I can't give what I don't know how to give.

All of the lessons that my Mom went thru with the Holocaust and surviving that. All of the things shared because of her pain and the mental anguish. The reasons for all that is why I write this blog. I was giving the gift expression of not just thru my conversation but thru my writing. I do not regret anyone of the things that I had to grow up with. Not one regret. The life lessons of growing up Jewish and then living my life out and proud as a gay man. All of this has given me substance. All of my incredible life experiences are because of who I am as a person.

If I can simply leave you with this one thing.

That one thing is you must keep going!!

You must keep wanting!!

You must keep wanting more!!

Never be content with the way things are or with what you have been given.

There is always something better.

There is always something bigger.

Whatever you are or want to be. Do not stop ever wanting to the best version of who you are because once you own that. The universe will never give up on you.

I feel in so many ways that my life has really just begun. There are so many things I want to accomplish. To achieve! I can not do this without the people in my life. You know who you are.

The people that I meet that become a part of my never ending story. They are my substance.

You are my substance.

Even those moments that are not so amazing are there for the simple fact that this will get better.

There are so many things that I write about that you can relate to or see yourself in that same happening are all here. Let me share one of the hardest things that I ever had to do in my life.

Accept myself as I am. I remember when I finally said out loud "I am Gay". I owned at immediately. When I said "I am Creative", I am able to do whatever I set my mind to accomplish. I am what I am. Those were huge steps forward.

You can never hide from your gifts or your talents.

You can never hide from who you are, but you have a choice.

We all have a choice. We can choose to live our life better. If you don't want your life the way it is, then change it. I know that's a big one.

If you don't choose, then someone will choose it for you.

The biggest lesson I have learned is how to give from my life experience. Example... my Mom's passing. When that really sad experience happened for me, there was a lot of request for me to share all of that. My choice was to not because it would make me relive it over and over.

What I gained is how to help others going thru that moment by learning to listen. By listening the answers for that moment would come to me. Each and every experience unique to the person telling me.

This had given the lesson of balance of irrational to rational thinking.

Irrational = emotional which can take you down the rabbit hole.

Rational = gratitude of all that I have been given. From living today and the ability to walk or in my case run down the street.

When you appreciate yourself then no one can take that away.

When you have both happening at the same time and you are getting thru it. Then you have balance.

When you have balance you can share or listen to help others.

You never will get unless you give.

You want happiness, then be happy. I know it can sound somewhat simplistic. But in reality it is quite simple. It's all the things we attach to it that makes you end up with the baggage. You end up with so much baggage you can't lift it all.

That's when you need the help.

That's when you need the lessons that I share. I have had a freight train full of baggage but we all ended up in the same destination.

All safe.

Surviving.

Being Happy.

Never giving up!!!

The reasons for this intermission in my life. I am starting the next act. It has taken all of that life experience to get to this. I am ready to begin the next chapters.

I can tell you with all that I have been given already. The moments will be larger. The people will be amazing. The love will be huge.

With all that in the rear view mirror. My Road ahead will be as amazing as I want it to be.

I look forward to so much more.

I will take you with me. I can not do it without you. Without anyone of you.

I can share this with you now.

I will not give up!!

Thank you for reading my blog. It comes from the heart.

Rand Angel for Live Live Live

Cheers!!!!