"Freedom" My daily internal protagonist fight. And I am "Winning"

"I try to discover

A little something to make me sweeter"

Living your life can seem like war some days. Living as who you are can be a challenge even for the strongest among us. My blog is about Living Life to the Fullest.

Currently living your life can seem like a struggle. A struggle to get up in the morning. A struggle to just survive. This post is not about the struggle. It is about winning the fight. The fight to be who you were intended to be on this planet.

Channeling thru the different chapters of living day by day, you can come across your past success. Your past victories. But we are really defined by the last thing we have done. The last goal completed. That is what defines our "What is Next" so to speak.

It is not the issues that define who you as a person, but it is the how you handle the issues that separate you from the rest. That is what makes the day to day miracles that you have gotten so used to being. You don't even recognize them because in your world the issues are satiated so perfectly that to the naked eye are not even seen. You know those moments where you finish a huge task and simply move toward another one with ease. You help someone without thinking because that us your new normal.

We have the freedom to be what we want to be. To do what you want to do.

You have the same freedom to let the things that really matter outweigh the petty challenges that nit pick at us. The more you let that go the stronger you become. Those tend to add up and all of a sudden another chapter of your life has been completed. When you look back on that I hope those moments make you smile. Not to say there are not always going to be challenges, but it is the experience of handling those challenges that separate us from the tribe.

When I am challenged with coming up with a new story, there are a couple of elements always in play. There must be an Antagonist and then a Protagonist at least. In my case I include many of them because it stops you from falling asleep before you get to the next sentence.

The First Scene is about introducing everyone. The Second Scene is about their worlds colliding with each other. A huge train wreck of emotions that seem like you are headed toward the cliff without a rail. The third scene is how you survive, how you learn another aspect of someone else dealing with the same challenge but showing you yet another way of success. To affect a change in you, hopefully it is something that makes you smile. But then like everyone else dependent on where your head is at presently determines your outcome. Of How it ends for you

Was that scenario good for you?

It's like the cigarette after sex syndrome for me. But then I don't smoke. No judgements here. At least you got off so to speak.

Let's have a little fashion and music to savor the moment and then after we continue!!

For my own moments. I tend to handle them like a three act play. The happening, the effect, and the outcome. Sometimes having to be put into parts so that I don't miss a single thing. There is no right or wrong way to get there, just as long as you do get there.

Just like love. There is no right or wrong way to love. We are not born with directions, but we are directed. Directed by the universe and its consistency of looking for the best thing for you. I know there can seem like you take so many left turns off the road but when you look at the larger picture, you really needed to learn that part before you become the star.

Today I am speaking to you in heady terms. Profound thoughts. I am painting the scenes to open certain senses so that you might just have that third act happen for you so you can have that be complete and happy end in the end. That is really what I always want for you

My day to day experience challenges me during this pandemic. It can be a struggle to be the lead in my own story. But those moments happen and at the end of each and every day I have made the decision to be happy. I love the people I love differently then they love me. That's always going to be the case. My main caveat is it is impossible to love just one person. There will be different aspects that different people bring to the table that cause you to love that more than the rest. You might have one that satisfies most of them but unless they are a machine they just cannot and should not. We have our uniqueness that separates us.

Just how confident we are about them gives us our degree of sexiness. Confidence is sexy. Happiness is our moments in the sun.

Stop battling those thoughts that are not always popular. If you love outside the box, just remember in my world there are no lines. But then that is my choice. My understanding. My world!

Stop complaining about the struggle and change how you are going to deal with it all. Just by that small change it can affect your day, your life and your happiness. If you are not taking the time to surround yourself with the ones that support you, that get you, that see you then you have homework to do.

I am hoping that you are finding some solace here.

The other day in a conversation, there was the statement to me. With all that has happened in your life. With the destructive upbringing you had to endure, "why are you not bitter". My answer is that by not giving control to the bitterness, by not letting that suffocate me I chose to live without it. Not even let that consume me one more minute. I was not alone, I had my mother dealing with the all of that and at the end of the day would say. "You are going to make it". My mother had her own lifetime of issues that she overcame that far outweigh my own. Because she survived that, it gave me the strength to live another day.

On a side note, sometimes you need someone to show the way and to get help. I went thru 10 years of psychotherapy to deal with all of the things that were sent me in my early world. We used to set the scene as imagine a cupboard with shelves all the way up to the ceiling. On those shelves are individual mason jars. Well we are going to take each one and open them one at a time. We are going to deal with each one to where there are no other jars on the shelf. Well thats what I did I emptied the cupboard. I even made the psychiatric journal that year because very few have had to endure what I went thru and not end up dead.

Well that is not winning is it? I chose to win. To fight that protagonist and change my day. I decided to win. I want all of you to win those fights you have with you own struggles to be yourself. It is a challenge worth living.

And I am living proof!

Thank you for reading my blog. I hope that I have helped you in some way. I will end this with one of my favorite songs. When I was a little younger, when discos ruled the land. I used to go to them to just dance. I loved dancing so much that I needed space to dance. I liked to make large movements. I used to dance on top of sometimes two story high speakers to this song. It has always brought me joy. Peace everyone. Cheers!!!