Five Years of My Best Life

by Rand Angel

Wanted to at least acknowledge Five years of writing Live Live Live. What was to be a Labor of Love became a personal adventure for myself. Originally intended to spotlight those that had inspired, motivated and driven me personally on a day to day to bases. This evolved into my own personal moments that anyone that reads the post would come to understand why I was inspired or what I got from these individuals on a regular bases. Most of the people mentioned or related to are in the Entertainment industry. Of course there are the motivational speakers or my own list of iconic people that have shaped my life in so many ways so I can basically shape yours.

From this there emerged personal stories of tragedy or triumph for me personally, my friends, my family. My blog experiment became what I had intended to inspire, to motivate, to acknowledge what works for me. Hopefully as you sorted through my posts you had least smiled, laughed or felt better about things in general. When I write my post they come from messages I receive as I read, watch, talk and listen to all kinds of groups, individuals or the closest of my relationships. In summary they come from the heart.

A full Five years of being really heard. I am heard and I am found.

Milestones at least for me are a way to look at what I had accomplished or still needing to have happen in my life. Goals made. Goals broken. Goals thought of as well as the ones put into action. As more and more posts were written, it became clear that I had the power to stop at anytime, but then that only makes others think it was a flash in the pan.

A passing dream!

Another goal that never finished as intended! The list continues.....

My personal life lessons from all this were that even though I keep daily journals, this is the best way to summarize where I want to be as well my choice to be happy. A continuation of therapy so to speak but for me constant action to make life better for me as well as the ones around me.

On a side note. there was never a writers block on my part as there is always so much to say, to acknowledge to listen. A segue off this point, if anything, the blog kept me interested in my day to writing as well as my own goals in life.

Bottom line!!

The Blog Live Live Live made me happy. When I created my format for the posts, my intentions were to keep it easy to read. Light and fun. I revived my own personal connections to music as I intended to pull you in to my mood as I wrote what I wrote. It was my way of inviting you to my party.

My party that never ends.

My endless invitation to the dance of my life.

I am a Party Boy!! From as long as I care to remember, I always have wanted to party. Always wanted to dance. Always wanted to sing. Its my happiest of happiest times. There are the occasional drinks, party favors(What!!!) and assorted friends, companions and the whatever that make the most fun. Otherwise why party!!. Its like Decaf coffee. Really what is the point of that? Maybe so the charge of energy that you get from coffee does not make you shake so badly. Truth is not the coffee but lack of B12. Anyone thats ever really spent one on one with me, they know "Party in Moderation". I set out a long time ago to come up with the formula of number of drinks, people, passion etc!!!! Basically 2 plus 2 equals a whole lot of happy. Don't get me started about Disco days, Studio 54, Paris.... That's what movies are made for and exist.

Enough on the party moments. The milestone of this blog segues into a larger one the last 20 years. The beginning of changing everything I had come to know in my life. The caregiver world as I took over the role of parent to my Mom and she would become my child. The abrupt stopping of working in entertainment. The feeling of just plain feeling safe as 9/11 happened that shut down every aspect of entertainment. The meetings, the premieres, screenings, film making and production all gone in a second. Not only to have it repeated again in 2020 as we learn the path way out of all this carnage, Once again the entertainment aspects but this time more for the ones that I know that are the movers and shakers of Films, Concerts, Singing and Writing Gigs, Talent Agents and Managers, and the where to all that goes with this world again of mine. I would not change a thing. What is important is I never give up!! If I am not going after what I want then where am I going? Makes you think Huh!!

Only this time, I had the lessons learned from the past 20 years as I spent almost an entire year helping some of my very creative, fragile, talented artists friends in the entertainment business. Long Long emotional Heart to Hearts with so many.

What it gave back to me was my own strengths in who I am as a person. The moments I shared with them thru all of the red carpet moments to the day after life and times.

It reminded me daily as to how talented and gifted they are as well of my own gifts.

This is not a blog about the struggles.

This is a blog about the choices. We all have this in common.

We can stand up and be the Rhoda or be the Mary. Being the Rhoda or Mary refers to the Mary Tyler Moore show. Rhoda was the brash, loud, and over zealous to cover for her insecurities. Where as Mary, quieter and not so outspoken but when it came time to speak. The words were comfort and from the heart. They showed you the way.

What can some days feel so overwhelming can some days rush over you and give you light.

A ray of hope!

A beacon of truth!

When life bitch slaps you some days. It's not always intended to make you feel bad about yourself. It's meant to wake your ass up... Look for all the great and good things you are capable of doing every day. The simple fact that you are alive and have another day to celebrate that in itself.

If you are living life, there are all the possibilities that happen every day,

Every moment!

Things that can seem out of control will make you look for the answers or find someone that actually help and not judge.

On a very personal observation over the years and to this day. I have had the extreme pleasure of being around so many beautiful people. There is always the vague points made. "They have it so easy". "Look at them" etc!!!

Well I always have met them. Still do!! But its because I want to see if substance matches the beauty. A sad point is if they are not aware of themselves, then the beauty disappears faster than the things that you indulge ie sweets, food, sex.... Never enough is there??? It is a lot of work to be all that. There is no way path. So many of the beautiful people never even get a chance to be heard because you can not get past the beauty.

When what happens to you affects others then it can become personal. None of it was ever your intentions to hurt, harm or mangle in anyway. The truth here is on any given day depending as to where your head is at currently. It can make you happy, sad, abandoned, enlightened at any given moment.

It is life.

It is so worth it. When things are so overwhelming ask for the tools to make it better. When you have the responsibility of another life then you do the best you can at any given moment. There is a reason that you have this now, its because you can. The distractions, the heartaches, the joys that come with it all. All of this perfectly designed to message you over and over. Its Life and its Living!!

If you want, you can do!!

No mistakes or bad and good days. These are learning points. If you don't like the outcome, then change. Change only happens when you change. It can be the smallest to larger than life decisions. But just staring at it all until you have some sort of action will never move the needle, never change the happy meter.

There is no such thing as breaking someones heart on your own. It takes both people. Reactions to reactions. Please forgive yourself for putting yourself thru so much anxiety. You know a side effect of living is balance. What swings out swings back. No one deserves any of it all. But you deserve to be happy. You deserve to live life well. Abundance is always around us. Sometimes we can't get past the "For Sale" sign in the front of our life to see what was there all along. If you think you are a bad person then you are bad person. Good person = good person. Stop the labels and just be.

Let's be clear here. Even though I appear to have all the answers. It's impossible because I don't have all the questions. It has taken a moment for me to get here from there.

But I never stopped trying.

I never stopped dancing.

Enjoy the moments of today as they happen. Look for the miracles that are around us all the time.

Congratulations on reading my blog for five years. If you have 'nt then there is no time like now.

Live Live Live. Livelivelives.com Luv to everyone. Peace to everyone. Cheers!!!

As always, Let's Dance our way out.....

Enjoy!!