A few days ago marked five years since the passing of my iconic mother.
As I promised myself and Mom, I would go to Los Angeles and perform the anniversary of this transition.
A transition that would and has become larger than anything I had ever experienced.
A passing that took my breath away and quite truthfully somedays I did not even want to get out of bed.
To the outside, wearing a face of upbeat and happiness when in truth, I was crying on the inside.
The lessons learned from this was from the beginning instead of trying to be so strong, it is warranted to be sad.
To wonder if I was going mad or somewhat insane as the inner voice of my Mom coming and going on daily sometimes hourly bases
The actual physical experience of feeling hugged so tight and things moving and being placed in front of me so I had no choice but to know Mom was here!
Staying here to guide me for the rest of my physical days and beyond.
Never have been a fan of depression and it was sometimes hard to relate to others that were depressed. I would be in denial
A second lesson learnt was depression is real. It's how you choose to view the lessons from it and only give this a limited time otherwise its a destroyer.
If you are not so strong, then get help. You do not have to go through this alone.
As for me, my mothers strong and very noticeable will was to get me thru this and for me to be the person she always believed me to be.
Because the strength of her beliefs on something much larger than life itself.
That there is something around us all the time.
The energy can be intimidating dependent on how strongly you believe.
Its not magic!
It is real.
The force around us is real!!
Blessed to be given a strong sense of internal energy and the numerous moments of constant authenticating being presented every day to me.
I can assure anyone that will listen or in search of the answers.
The very truth is just how big the moments will become and continue to this very day are based what you can handle.
The next phase was the emergence of the mediums. Mediums that actually sought me out because my Mom searched for the real and valid. The ones that really are in touch with this amazing reality of energies constantly around us and allow do is simple. One by one they have come
Ask!!!
Believe!!!
Witness!!
Live!!!
This years anniversary became a change point for me as I embrace my feelings and let them go.
As I forgive myself and let it go.
As I celebrate the life and the continuance of my Mom.
It has set me free.
Not to say there will be those moments that all of a sudden stop me and make me smile or cry or laugh.
It's Ok.
It is constant and will be with me everyday.
I am often asked who is here for me?
I live by myself but I am never alone.
I am filled with the spirit and the knowing that at a moments asking it embraces me and tells me over and over again .
I am loved.
I was loved and my own experience of it all became a simple fact.
We are here together and the energy never leaves us as long as we embrace the facts.
Believe in the voices.
Know that this is real.
Like a sunrise so resplendent that you see the rays of light shining in patches across the mountains, across the tops of the trees and houses.
It gives hope!!
It gives strength!!
It gives love!!
This is me.
I own it.
I am what I am . And most important I am true to myself. Its OK!!!
I wanted to elevate my readers because they are a different breed. Instead of being called lifers.
For me they are for now "The Elites".
"The Elites"
The very fact that they read my blogs shows us are they are in tune or in search of that incredible light in all of us brings us here and connected.
Thank you for reading "This is Me, We are glorious".
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